Tuesday, January 27, 2015

Challenge Yourself!

In October, as I was listening to the speakers at the first annual Idea Exchange Summit on Women in Science, Technology, Engineering, and Mathematics (STEM) at Bentley University (Waltham, Massachusetts), I started to pick up on a pattern. When young professional women – scientists and engineers – were asked about their greatest challenges working in a technical field, to an individual, each and every one of them in their reply identified confidence as a chief issue.

This summit had been planned well in advance, but the timing could not have been better, coming just after the flap over the summer about the dearth of women and minorities in the IT world, and on the heels of a slew of articles about women’s advancement in the workplace, plus the book Lean In, by Sheryl Sandberg, which I have to confess, I didn’t get past about page 67, it was so depressing.  

The response from the panelists immediately reminded me of an article that came out earlier in the year (“The Confidence Gap,” by Katty Kay and Claire Shipman). It is such an old issue. I remember sitting at the dinner table and having the very same conversation with my housemates when I was in graduate school at the University of Illinois some thirty years ago. My housemates were PhD students, studying physics and microbiology, and yet we often asked the same question. Why were the men so much more confident? And likewise, why did we feel our knowledge base and capabilities were not as vast, even after completing the same coursework, and maybe even scoring higher on the exams? Is there a gender-based difference in how men and women deal with an incomplete understanding of things, that men are more comfortable – or more practiced at – filling in the gaps along the way, while women like or need to have a more complete understanding of things to feel satisfied. Perhaps a man is more likely to say, “Well, I’ve got the general hang of things, I’ll sort out the details of what I’m missing later.”  

Is there simply an innate gender-based difference in confidence? Go to the beach, and you’ll see bald, fat, hairy men strutting their stuff, quite confident, while for many women, even the exercise of shopping and trying on bathing suits is stress-inducing. Perhaps confidence is intrinsically linked with having a more outward-looking perspective, and not caring about what others think. In school, girls tend to follow the rules more than boys, and are rewarded for it. Boys, however, by breaking rules and learning how to adapt and adjust on the fly to difficult situations, are actually learning the greater lessons preparing them for real life.  

I’ve digressed. Bottom line, we’ve been asking the same question for decades now, and we still don’t fully understand why it happens, nor do we have any great strategies for making things better.   

In fact, the Kay/Shipman article actually points out that studies show that even just making women more aware of their lower confidence levels make them feel even more self-aware and less confident. It’s the equivalent of yelling at a tight-rope walker, telling them to look down, look, and see all the sharp, hard things they could land on if they fell.  

Everyone seems to recognize the value and benefits of diversity, from both a human rights perspective as well as a business perspective. In this same timeframe, as reported in both The Boston Globe and the Wall Street Journal, a study by MIT came out showing that workers – both men and women – were happier working with members of the same gender, but offices with greater diversity had higher productivity. It’s understandable that same-gender work groups would have more harmonious interpersonal dynamic, with birds of a feather flocking together. Increasing diversity likely introduces more divergent thought, more conflict, and the potential for more creative solutions. It takes work to listen, work out disagreements, and incorporate different perspectives, and while it may be less fun, there are rewards for it. It’s uncomfortable, though. 

Yet, even hiring and promoting women can be a challenge for a company trying to improve diversity, if there are not enough women in the talent pool applying for jobs and competing up the corporate ladder. The September Forbes article by Kerry Hannon cited a prior Harvard Business Review blog by Tara Sophia Mohr, reporting the results of her own study on why women don’t apply for jobs, following up on an internal study by Hewlett Packard (as reported by Nancy F. Clark for ForbesWoman) which found that while most women won’t apply for a job unless they meet all the requirements, the majority of men would, perhaps viewing the “requirements” as more of a wish list, or something to be negotiated, or developed over time on the job. The possible underlying socio-psychological reasons are many, with confidence being just one factor. Do women tend to interpret things more literally? Is climbing the corporate ladder less important to women?

We are still struggling to understand things and to come up with solutions. We do seem to understand that the key time for influencing girls to pursue their STEM interests is middle school, a time when girls are especially vulnerable to peer pressure and fitting in. So, I came across a book review for Science… For Her! by Megan Amram. In fact, I almost dragged Susan to a book talk in Harvard Square, and if not for our parking situation (we were out of quarters), we might have gone, but it is just as well. Later on, at a Barnes and Noble, I got to open the book and peruse its pages, and unfortunately, found it not that funny, and not at all helpful. And certainly not aimed at or suited for middle school girls.

Not to sound like a 1950s black-and-white newsreel, this isn’t helpful to our nation. We need both boys and girls to realize their full potential and contribute to solving our country’s technical challenges. We need to not outsource this. (For this use of the term outsourcing, read How Will You Measure Your Life? by Clayton Christensen.) 

While at Barnes and Noble, I also happened to trip across another, very different book, The Underground Girls of Kabul: In Search of a Hidden Resistance in Afghanistan, by Jenny Nordberg. In a culture where girls are second-class citizens, and a burden to their families, there is the now-told story of the girls that are dressed to pass as boys, “bacha posh” they are called, so they can have access to a world of greater opportunity. It is an old tradition there. I haven’t read the book yet, but have added it to my reading list. The dedication is inspiration enough:  

“To every girl who figured out that she could run faster, and climb higher, in pants.”

We know from the Dalai Lama’s talk that at least he believes that compassion can be taught. What about confidence? Can it be taught? Or, is it something developed only through life experience?

To bring this full circle, back to rugby - there is probably no greater training ground for building confidence than the arts and sports, to challenge girls - and boys - to go outside their comfort zones, face their fears, and learn how to deal with both winning and losing. In the resounding words of one of our former Beantown coaches: “Challenge yourself!” Whether joining the tennis team (even though you don’t know all the rules), the cross country team (even though you’re not sure if it involves running or skiing), trying out for the bowling team, or writing a blog or a book for that matter - the most important thing is to keep putting yourself out there.

Strangely enough, it is just as important, and maybe even more important, thinking you can, as it is knowing you can.

As one of my old Illinois rugby teammates once said, after getting her first real job: “What in my job description requires you to be able to see my legs?” The first – and last – time that I wore a skirt to the office was on the day of my first real job interview in the spring of 1986, and I haven’t worn one since. (The funny part of that story is that I had to run out and buy the skirt that very morning!) I rue the fact that no one makes a nice pair of ladies trousers with deep enough pockets to carry all my essentials (pens, mechanical pencil, notebooks).  

I often took inspiration from a poster I had in my office in the basement of the Natural History Building while I was a grad student there at the University of Illinois. It was one of Garfield the cat, looking up at Odie, the dog, who was sitting up on a branch of a tree, panting, smiling, and tongue hanging out. The thought bubble over Garfield’s head: “It’s amazing what one can accomplish when one doesn’t know what one can’t do.” Precisely.

Post Script
Speaking of folks who are putting themselves out there:

London Grammar was in Boston Monday January 26th for a concert at the House of Blues. Because of the blizzard, we stayed home, but were able to watch it livestream on Yahoo! from our living room. And now you can, too:

And of course they played “Strong” for Boston Strong. And Watertown Strong!
Good luck to the band, from the UK, in making their way to their next show in NYC.

Royal, a new restaurant in Watertown, by Chef Rachid Kourda, will be opening soon – stay tuned for details. http://www.royalwatertown.com/
We are so excited to welcome our new neighbor!

And, as for me, I should get back to the book. In the words of Imagine Dragons: “It’s time to begin, isn’t it…” And there is nothing like a snow day for writing.

Coming Next
Probably something about rugby vs. football. 

Unlike the NFL, in rugby the same game balls are used by both teams, and there is no chance for one team to have a tinkered set of game balls. Not saying we did. But, wouldn’t it be simpler if both teams used the same ball? 


Amram, Megan. 2014. Science… For Her!  New York: Scribner.

Christensen, Clayton M. 2012. How Will You Measure Your Life? New York: HarperCollins Publishers.

Clark, Nancy F. 2014. Act Now to Shrink the Confidence Gap. ForbesWoman. April 28, 2014.

Hannon, Kerry. 2014. Are Women Too Timid When They Job Search? Forbes. 11 September 2014.

Johnston, Katie. 2014. Workers Happier with Members of Same Gender, Study Finds. The Boston Globe. October 6, 2014.

Kay, Katty and Claire Shipman. 2014. The Confidence Gap. The Atlantic. May 2014.

Mohr, Tara S. 2014. Why Women Don’t Apply for Jobs Unless They’re 100% Qualified. Harvard Business Review. August 25, 2014.

Nordberg, Jenny. 2014. The Underground Girls of Kabul: In Search of a Hidden Resistance in Afghanistan. New York: Crown Publishers.

Silverman, Rachel Emma. 2014. Men and Women at Work: Unhappy, But Productive. Wall Street Journal. December 15, 2014.
 © 2015 Rosemary A. Schmidt
Rose Schmidt is the author of “Go Forward, Support! The Rugby of Life.” Use of individual quotes with proper citation and attribution, within the limits of fair use, is permitted. If you would like to request permission to use or reprint any of the content on the site, please contact the author.

Saturday, January 17, 2015

#NoStigma #NoDrama #BringBackOurGirls

This story begins in August, when I realize that Beantown’s annual college tournament must be approaching, and every year I think about reaching out to the team and offering them some books, and this year I actually did it. I circle the practice fields, in the shadow of the Harvard coliseum, sorting out the best place to park, realizing that while climbing a fence may have worked in my playing days, I was not about to lug or hoist 25-pound boxes of books with me over or under a fence. I finally park in a civilized manner on Western Avenue across from the Bus Stop pub, another old familiar landmark. Walking out onto the field, dewy grass underfoot, I feel like the old Doc Graham character in the movie, Field of Dreams, and half expect to look down and see my business casual khakis and work shirt transform magically into rugby shorts and jersey, Clarks into cleats, skin and bones into muscle again. Alas, no.  As the sun sinks lower in the sky, the heat of the day slowly eases and surrenders to cooler waves of air moving across the field. It’s a beautiful night for rugby practice. There must be forty players circled up. I smile, recalling the Alma Mater statue at the University of Illinois, with a figure, arms outstretched, and the inscription: “To thy happy children of the future those of the past send greetings.” Or, in this case, books!

A couple of weeks later, I am talking to A Guy in the publishing world, and he asks how the book is doing. “Great,” I say, “I’ve filled one notebook and started into the next, making good progress.” My head is so into the next book, the work in progress, this is how I answer, but I see immediately by the slightly confused look on his face that he meant the first book. “Oh, that book.” I smile, close my eyes, and have to chuckle to myself a little bit. How do I answer that? How do I explain that the metrics have changed, that success has been re-defined in terms of how many books we’re able to move out of our laundry room.  Plus, there’s a new house rule: no printing anything new until we clear out the existing stock.
Since the tournament is local this year, in Acton, I decide to swing out and catch part of the Beantown-Providence game. It’s early September, 95 degrees and humid, yet there are the first red-tipped leaves showing that fall is on its way, bringing to mind lines from the poem, “blonde and sad skeletons, whistle, whistle,” by Virginia Rice Smith (Sundress Publications, 2014):

“Through glass, map a world without sound: wine
blue, lime-russet trees draping yellow concrete – primary,

tangible. Death continues with brisk affection
and red galls, leaf-tips lit like nerve endings.”

“Green leaf, red leaf, green again. Only August,
and already falling."
Along the sideline, I see only a few players from my playing days, one actually still playing, a few involved with coaching and refereeing, and another retiree just happening by. They seem not to have aged a bit. I run into MaryBeth Mathews, who played for Beantown six years, started the Portland WRFC in 1977, and has been coaching Bowdoin for 21 years. Their team is well-represented at the tournament, and seems to be doing well. I wonder aloud while talking to her, how things have changed over the years. I had expected her answer to be maybe about funding, the level of support from the college, the fitness level of women joining the team, or the changing organizational structure and national requirements. Her answer: “It’s more about how things haven’t changed, and maintaining the rugby culture.”

Now, since ‘rugby culture’ could mean a lot of different things to different people, I ask her to expand on this. Her answers hearken back to my first days of playing for the University of Illinois.

“The rugby culture is inclusive, and one built on respect. Everyone is welcome and can belong, which is huge to a freshman woman just joining the team, and transitioning to college.  There are no cuts, no tryouts. Everyone can contribute to the team success. You don’t have to like everyone; it’s a big team and they may not all be your best friends, but you do have to respect everyone. The team had two slogans last year: #nostigma and #nodrama; #nostigma meaning, within the team culture of respect, there are no negative labels for being who you are, and #nodrama meaning, we’ll communicate about issues or differences and avoid drama because we respect each other and because this is what works.”

“Each person brings something to the team. You may not be the fastest or strongest, but you may bring leadership qualities, a great sense of humor, communication skills, a different cultural background, a work ethic… And teammates are there for you - they’ll be there with you when you’re down, and they’ll laugh and celebrate with you when things are good.”

Coach Mathews applies “athlete-centered coaching” – a “humanistic approach that enhances athlete learning and development through sport. At its best, it shares power, enables athletes to make decisions, and produces inspiring results from inspired people.  The women know and buy into the importance of strength and conditioning training for a contact sport; they know they increase their chances of getting hurt if they’re not in shape.”

She also describes the transformational leadership displayed by her players. The team had recently participated in a workshop facilitated by the campus Resource Center for Sexual and Gender Diversity, where they talked about why they played, why they make the commitment of time and energy to the sport, and to each other, even showing up to the workshop at nine o’clock on a Saturday morning, and the one thing that never came up was winning.

“It has never been about the winning.”

Yet, the funny thing is that winning is just what happens, when everything is aligned and clicking, when there is no fried chicken in the clubhouse (Red Sox 2011), and everyone is pulling for each other. Watch a rugby game. If you’re not playing, you’re on the sideline watching and cheering on your teammates.  

Congratulations to Bowdoin on an undefeated season, and finishing fourth in the Division II National Championships!  

I have to confess, the night before I dropped the books off at practice, I had a dream that I was looking for my mouth guard. In my mind, in my dreams, I am still ready to play!

Virginia Rice Smith’s complete book of poetry, When I Wake It Will Be Forever, is available on Amazon.com. Virginia’s poems are both accessible and stand as works of art, ready to be explored and savored again and again. The title of the poem “blonde and sad skeletons, whistle, whistle,” is a variation on a line translated from the poem, Trilce (XXVII), by Peruvian poet, César Vallejo.

MaryBeth Mathews played a total of six years for Beantown, one as a member of the original team in the fall of 1976, and again 1988 to 1992, returning to Beantown after starting Portland WRFC (1977 to 1986), and has been coaching Bowdoin for 21 years. Twenty-one years! Speaking on the topic of coaching women’s rugby: “I could go on and on about these topics (women, rugby, confidence, athlete-centered coaching, mindset) and maybe it is my passion about these subjects and guiding a new crop of women that join the team each year, through four years, that keeps coaching so invigorating, challenging and rewarding for me.”

For more information about Bowdoin Women’s Rugby Club, please visit their website: http://athletics.bowdoin.edu/sports/wrugby/index
For more info about Beantown, visit: http://beantownrugby.com/

Coming Next
I will continue with this theme on women, girls, and confidence in the next post.

Post Script
Happy New Year! Sorry about the long silence, just busy celebrating the many miracles of the season (more on miracles in a future post), Christmas, Hanukkah, and mailing my cards out before Christmas for the first time in my life.

Happy Martin Luther King Day. Hoping that someday we truly can all get along.

We are also now in the football playoff season, and hoping that Coach Bill Belichick and the New England Patriots have a few more miracles up their sleeves! Though, perhaps football could be a better, safer sport if it borrowed a few things from rugby, but this is also a topic for another day. Good luck Patriots!

A couple of quick health and safety tips:
If you get jalapeño in your eye (perhaps while making chili for the football game) – use milk as an eye wash.
If you think you’re getting a cold or flu – take some elderberry syrup. There are a couple of locally produced versions from Vermont and Maine:

Switching to a more serious note -

My heart goes out to the citizens of France, suffering terrorism on their streets, and grieving the loss of loved ones. And also to the hundreds, if not thousands of people, reportedly mostly women and children, killed by Boko Haram in Nigeria. And the Unknown Girl, perhaps not even ten years old, who was used to set off a bomb in a market place also in the area of Borno State, Nigeria. All of this, all within the past couple of weeks. Nor has the world forgotten the 200 lost girls of Nigeria, taken one night last April, we just don’t know what to do or where to look for you. What is wrong with this world? There is a strong case to be made for expanding the rugby culture as far and wide as we can, to create a world where all are respected and can live in peace.

#NoStigma  #NoDrama  #BringBackOurGirls  

Smith Rice, Virginia. 2014. When I Wake It Will Be Forever. Knoxville: Sundress Publications.

© 2015 Rosemary A. Schmidt
Rose Schmidt is the author of “Go Forward, Support! The Rugby of Life.” Use of individual quotes with proper citation and attribution, within the limits of fair use, is permitted. If you would like to request permission to use or reprint any of the content on the site, please contact the author.